Ready

I am ready for this wonderful change.
I welcome it.
I welcome union, beauty and love.
I welcome happiness.
All are moving in from the door I have just opened.

I thank the old for all its lessons it has given me
I release the old with Love.
I let go of my old life.

I invite the new with joy, gratitude and cupcakes.

The Ground Beneath Her Feet

"...it wasn't really surprising that she was disoriented and off balance most of the time. And lonely. It has to be admited. Public life or private life, makes no difference, that's the truth: when she wasn't with him, it didn't matter who she was with, she was always alone.

Disorientation: loss of the East. And of Ormus Cama, her Sun."


Salman Rushdie - The Ground Beneath Her Feet

Ladybug Dream

In my dream, I was at the house of a woman friend.
I don't know this friend in real life.
But she is my friend in this dream.
She has a job as a designer or an architect.
She makes her drawings with a software called "ladybug".
This "ladybug" software is sensitive to the sound of its user's voice and his/her words.
So the user only speaks the keywords and the project forms on the screen.
I get amazed by the technology.
When I get home, I google "ladybug", hesitating if "lady" and "bug" are written separate or together.

Then I woke up in real life.
I went to the bathroom.
There was a dead ladybug on the floor.
This has been the first time I have ever seen a ladybug in this house and in my dream.

Synchronicity should never be underestimated.
It tries to tell you something most of the time.

The Second Vision

I saw a room.
Inside the room were voices of drums.
A fire was burning somewhere.
There was a huge red cone which was hung from the ceiling.
And inside the cone was someone whose head was covered with feathers.
He/She wore a shaman's robe
I couldn't see his/her face at first.
The he/she looked at me.
There was no face.
Just pure white light where his/her face should have been.

And I came back.

Kundalini is a Woman in Love

Kundalini is the Sleeping Beauty.

She sleeps in her sacred place, Sacrum, at the bottom of our spines.
The way to her Sacred place is covered with the thorny bushes of thoughts, worries, plans, dreams and fears.

She sleeps, for timeless times.
The deep knowledge that she must be awakened only by her Beloved is the nature of her Existance.
If she is awakened by a false alarm or someone who isn't worthy to wake her up, she goes wild. She arises with all her might, destroys the sacred place, burns all the bushes to be free to search for her Beloved and most of the time, blinded by her Love, she goes into wrong directions or all directions at once, and cause destruction in all her domain.
Sometimes, when she can not find her Beloved, she falls into despair and goes back down to her sacred place and locks herself there as the Damsel in the Tower. Whatever direction she takes, she burns down everything that she sees as an obstacle on her way.

She must be awakened by her Beloved who is her Equal.

Only then She rises most gracefully and follows her Beloved to his Kingdom. She becomes the Queen and she reigns as ONE with her Beloved King.

A Valley in the Soul

"In geology, a valley or dale is a depression with predominant extent in one direction." Wikipedia


Just like rivers do, if feelings flow continuously in one direction, they most certainly create a deppression:

A Valley in the Soul.


In 2006, a deppression
In 2008, a valley
led me to my
Awakening.

Love is an Eclipse

Love is an eclipse.

It is the most amazing alignment of three human aspects: Mind, Soul and the Body. It is when the Soul places itself between the Mind and the Body. It is the lack of connection between the two of them. Neither the Mind can control the Body, nor the Body can obey the Mind during that state of Love. Their all sight is blocked by the ecliptic shadow of the Soul.

That shadow is the Beloved.